Perception


time 1420
weather sunny
having my meal now
while writing tis post
after breaking up wiv someone
i finally understand
actually
being in a relationship
a long relationship
u need trust and patience
without these elements
a relationship will  not last long
this time
i learn something 
trusting someone 
i need to understand the person's personality
attitude, behavior, feelings, culture
and the most important thing is that
i need to know
what the person's NEEDS
next
patience
is the element needed
when two person is separated from each other
for a period of time
but
during the past few weeks
i found out that
i've wasted my time on things
that is not worth my effort on it
therefore
i would rather concentrate on my studies now
rather than meeting new friends
and putting effort in things that do not worth my enerygy
and now
friends
can i know how do people define FRIENDS?


today
my lecturer
taught me a new concept
PERCEPTION
it's a concept of how to view people
now
with perception
i view people differently
with this
no one will worth my trust
cos 
till now
even my very 'good' friends
none of them understands me
i jus dont know why
the only person i will trust fully is
the one who give me life
my mom
others?
i'll just say
i don trust anyone anymore
unless
u really understands what i want
understands how i feels
because
i'm not a person 
who will reveals my emotions easily
may be today u'll c me very happy from the outside
but u'll not know what's my feelings
hiding within myself
cos 
i dun wan other people got affected by my emotions
that's why i act normally
like i'm fine. 

EnD