sorrow..

few weeks bak,
i saw one of my frens post on fb,
saying dat,
'the one who always make his/her frens happy is the most lonely of all'
i m quite agree wiv tis sentence,
as i'm also one of them,
i tink,
after tis semester,
i'm gonna be very lonely in my house,
as all of my seniors are graduating,
and i'm the only one left on my floor,
the theme of my blog is correct,
'appreciate everyone beside us while we can'
but,
it's too late for me to appreciate them now,
as they are leaving me one by one.

now,
i've only 2 buddies in campus,
one,
who is a very straight guy,
not very clever,
but hardworking,
but,
it's kinda hard to communicate wiv him,
the other one,
who only knows how to flirt and play,
using me as a tool,
but,
these two are the only closest to me when i'm in campus,
sometimes,
i gt tink of going class alone,
eat alone,
study alone,
but,
if i do all those alone,
i rather not to study without frens,
i wanna stay bak ipoh,
go work,
i HATE to study seriously,
putting pressure on my head,
i hate it when exam's round the corner,
cos,
my other 'frens',
these bunch of frens,
are those,
who usually only say hi n bye to me,
when we meet,
these are what i called frens,
hi-bye frens,
i tink,
my uni life will not be as exciting as others,
will not be so happy as others,
i feel like crying alone in my room sometimes,
but,
what for?
cry for who?
there are many times,
where i wan someone to chat wiv me,
but,
when i need someone,
there's only me alone,
sitting there in my room,
facing 4 walls of my room,
most of the times,
my buddies in those online games,
are better than my real life frens,
although they are not real,
but,
at least they can keep me company,
and most important ting is that,
they can make me happy,
now,
everyday,
i usually wake up wiv a good mood,
n usually the mood will be blown up by someone,
tis is not what i wan,
i wan bak the someone who cares bout me,
n not always bz chatting wiv someboy else,
can u come bak to me?
doubtful...T.T