Perception


time 1420
weather sunny
having my meal now
while writing tis post
after breaking up wiv someone
i finally understand
actually
being in a relationship
a long relationship
u need trust and patience
without these elements
a relationship will  not last long
this time
i learn something 
trusting someone 
i need to understand the person's personality
attitude, behavior, feelings, culture
and the most important thing is that
i need to know
what the person's NEEDS
next
patience
is the element needed
when two person is separated from each other
for a period of time
but
during the past few weeks
i found out that
i've wasted my time on things
that is not worth my effort on it
therefore
i would rather concentrate on my studies now
rather than meeting new friends
and putting effort in things that do not worth my enerygy
and now
friends
can i know how do people define FRIENDS?


today
my lecturer
taught me a new concept
PERCEPTION
it's a concept of how to view people
now
with perception
i view people differently
with this
no one will worth my trust
cos 
till now
even my very 'good' friends
none of them understands me
i jus dont know why
the only person i will trust fully is
the one who give me life
my mom
others?
i'll just say
i don trust anyone anymore
unless
u really understands what i want
understands how i feels
because
i'm not a person 
who will reveals my emotions easily
may be today u'll c me very happy from the outside
but u'll not know what's my feelings
hiding within myself
cos 
i dun wan other people got affected by my emotions
that's why i act normally
like i'm fine. 

EnD

People


Dear blog,
It's me again,
2day,
I'm gonna tell you on a topic,
which was discussed by my brother,
I found out that it's quite true,
That,
after studying for so long here,
I find that,
there are 3 major types of people in UTAR,
the first type,
is those who likes to be in gang,
and,
there are a few types also,
for those who likes to be in gang,
those who get together in sports (i mean basketball),
those who get together in games (i mean A-station),
those who get together for meals (i mean lunch or dinner),
those who will be only together in class,
i think,
that's all for gang,
next type,
are those couples in pairs,
who always stick together,
(i always pity the guy when i saw these type)
and then,
the last type,
is those who is always alone all time,
these people will be very happy although they are all alone,
after a long chat with my brother on this topic,
i found that,
i fall in the 3rd category D=,
i dunno why,
my friends are leaving me one by one,
except for those who i currently know now,
i know,
i have lots of friends,
bunch of them,
but,
you know what?
these people often use me as a tool,
a teaching tool,
ask me to teach them, 
ask me to borrow them answers,
ask me for past years,
have they ever care about me?
sometimes,
i rather i have no friends than having many friends,
now,
my exam's over,
my feelings should be very happy and excited,
but,
i've the feeling that,
after i come bak for nex sem,
i will be all alone,
ALL THE TIME,
so,
i'll just concentrate on my studies,
add oil to myself ba...


dc-ed~

sorrow..

few weeks bak,
i saw one of my frens post on fb,
saying dat,
'the one who always make his/her frens happy is the most lonely of all'
i m quite agree wiv tis sentence,
as i'm also one of them,
i tink,
after tis semester,
i'm gonna be very lonely in my house,
as all of my seniors are graduating,
and i'm the only one left on my floor,
the theme of my blog is correct,
'appreciate everyone beside us while we can'
but,
it's too late for me to appreciate them now,
as they are leaving me one by one.

now,
i've only 2 buddies in campus,
one,
who is a very straight guy,
not very clever,
but hardworking,
but,
it's kinda hard to communicate wiv him,
the other one,
who only knows how to flirt and play,
using me as a tool,
but,
these two are the only closest to me when i'm in campus,
sometimes,
i gt tink of going class alone,
eat alone,
study alone,
but,
if i do all those alone,
i rather not to study without frens,
i wanna stay bak ipoh,
go work,
i HATE to study seriously,
putting pressure on my head,
i hate it when exam's round the corner,
cos,
my other 'frens',
these bunch of frens,
are those,
who usually only say hi n bye to me,
when we meet,
these are what i called frens,
hi-bye frens,
i tink,
my uni life will not be as exciting as others,
will not be so happy as others,
i feel like crying alone in my room sometimes,
but,
what for?
cry for who?
there are many times,
where i wan someone to chat wiv me,
but,
when i need someone,
there's only me alone,
sitting there in my room,
facing 4 walls of my room,
most of the times,
my buddies in those online games,
are better than my real life frens,
although they are not real,
but,
at least they can keep me company,
and most important ting is that,
they can make me happy,
now,
everyday,
i usually wake up wiv a good mood,
n usually the mood will be blown up by someone,
tis is not what i wan,
i wan bak the someone who cares bout me,
n not always bz chatting wiv someboy else,
can u come bak to me?
doubtful...T.T

Wateva...

hi blog...

tis time i will not start with any stories...

tis time...

all my emotions, expressions, feelings...

will BOOM out...

i'm now ed in my last semester of my 1st yr of degree...

many many many tings had happen...

throughout my degree life here...

i've gone through many many tings...

of cos...

there are new frens coming in...

new tasks...

new subjects...

but...

one thing i duno y...

i tink all the frens i know...

MOST of them...

just know how to take advantage on me...

when they are in trouble...

i help them...

when i need help...

no one will entertain me...

is this wat we call friendship?

nowadays...

most of my frens...

are just hi n bye...

not those who sit down in a group...

chat...play...

now...

i duno wat i did wrong again...

everyday...

i need company...

i need ppl to come chat wiv me...

u?

i've gt ntg to say bout it...

always i'm the one who is doing the wrong ting...

may be i'll just go die?

doubtful...

An Ordinary Lifestyle

Let us start with a simple story,

Once upon a time,

There's a boy,

who is born in a family,

a poor family,

which lives happily in a small village,

everyone lives an ordinary lifestyle in the family,

a dad who works at a factory,

a mom whom is a housewife,

a brother who cares about his younger brother,

and the little boy himself,

who is very simple minded,

where he only wants to live happily for the rest of his life,

BUT,

Time passes very quickly,

20 years have past and the boy had grown into a teenager,

everything that he wants had changed,

everything that he thought is different from those children days,

he thought that life would be easy and simple for everyone in his family,

BUT,

he found out that they are all FAKERS,

all are BIG JOKES,

DREAM,

everything that happen is now getting worst and worst,

family problem,

dad's side,

mom's side,

even his own family,

and now,

his own problem in his life,

this boy,

just wants to live an ordinary life,

because,

he's just an ordinary boy,

NOT superman,

do this,

do that,

even assignments,

no one could help him,

all done by himself,

this boy's story will never end until he dies,

so,

as a conclusion,

make your life simple,

don't pressurize yourself by holding tonnes of stones on your back,

divide them to your friends and families,

and everyone will you solve it. 

Hi,

How r u mr BLOG?

I tink i've left blogging since...

erm... nvm...it's just a matter of time,

talking about time,

many things have happen during the past few months,

family problems, sem break, KL, n CNY,

even though this semester is long,

but the time is not enough for me,

it's end of week 4 now,

and i'm still doing nothing,

NOTHING!!

mid-terms, assignments, @.@!!

talking about assignments,

I DON'T WANT TO BE A LEADER!!

nowadays,

i dunno y ppl sked to become the leader,

is it that being the leader will do more?

NO!!

it's just that they are lazy and scared,

if u are lazy,

i would say PLEASE GO BACK HOME,

don study pls,

i know, 

that some ppl dont wanna be the leader,

because of no courage,

no responsibilities,

no leadership,

but do you think i have all these two items in ME??!!!

i tink if i have,

i'll become someone important to the society in the future.

I also know that some ppl,

they are hardworking,

but don want to become the leader,

WAI!!

pls try to be a leader la...

shy wat wor...

In this semester,

i tink i will die in one of my subjects because of my group members,

that is the subject which i have the most confidence,

Guess?

i tink THOSE who knows me very well will know the answer...

Well,

i tink that's all ill write for today...

till next time..

see ya...=)

*y3ow*