Sometimes

sometimes...

people will feel lonely...

but for some people...

they don't like to be in a crowd...

sometimes...

humans act weirdly...

they do stupid things...

but their action have their purposes...

b'cos...

they wanna attract attention from their friends...

sometimes...

some human beings will do wrong things...

for their own benefits...

or some will do for their loved ones...

sometimes...

when time comes...

human's emotions will change...

they will laugh, cry, or...

they will think of committing suicide...

sometimes...

human beings can't work alone...

they need friends...

they need companions...

they need partners...

but the most important thing is...

they need family...

till now...

it's been awhile since i wrote my last blog...xD

sometimes...

i've been thinking of quitting this blog...

but...

something tells me to continue doing it...

it's been awhile since my foundation life till my degree life now...

i think that i've not changed at all...

i know that i'm not like those guys...

who like to flirt in front of gals...

sometimes...

people ask me...

"can u be more active? don't be so cool..."

something like that makes me wanna change...

but i can't...

because...

i am who i am...

-end-

yeow

Time is short...

Dear my blog,

long time din find u chat edi...

due to my laziness...

it has been a few months since i wrote on u...

rite? do you miss me? haha...

Now...

i'm pursuing my degree course...

no more foundation...

haiz... those are the days...

i miss them so so much...>.<''

a lot of tings had happened...

work, genting, world cup, and...

all my mid terms are OVER!!!

WOO-HOO~~~haha...

my presures are kinda relieved now...

but one thing that still disturbing me...

ptptn loan...=.=''

y my application failed?

is there anything wrong with my application?

am i not qualified?

or....

the GOVERNMENT SUX?

i tink most probably is the last reason lo...

no excuse...

but during the past six weeks...

i've been struggling through mid terms...

mid terms mid terms and mid terms...

although it was quite challenging...

but...

i felt that i m still not prepared for my finals...

so...

what should i do?

may be i should pray more...

LOL~

or i should study starting from now onwards...

haha~

thats ridiculous lo...

after so many mid terms...

must have some rest ge ma...

aiya...

sui bian la...

but i tink my mandarin hav improved...=)

but...

during this semester...

there's a lot of changes in my frens' heart...

it seems like...

they are going away...

one by one...

going to their new frens...

i tink what my 'grandma' said was right... 

"Meet New Friends, Forget Old Friends..."

but now i m still doubtful...

should i forget them also?

or...

i should go meet my new frens...

say bye bye to old ones?

doubtful...@.@

but last nite...

before my exam...

my bro's frens did sumtin fat i admire most...

dat is...

when they heard that i need transport to campus...

they say they lend their car to my bro...

walao eh...

where to find these types of frens wor...

i wish i could have them as my best frens too...

but till now...

i m still searching for these types of loyal and good fren...

so may be i'll stop here for a moment...

bye for now...=)

Peter Lim

the other world...


there's a place known as heaven...
there's a place known as hell...
there's a place known as earth...
and...
there's a place known as nowhere...
humans are born to live on earth...
there are creatures who came from the other  side of the world...
what do we usually call them?
ghost...
is there really ghost?
erm...
that's a bit weird in that question...
those things live in their own world...
the other side of the dimension...
some are good...
some are naughty...
and...
some are dangerous...
the ones in the movies are just humans acting as ghost...
but sometimes they are quite real...


after my emotions return to normal...
everything is settle...
my relationship is back to normal...
all it happen is because of my emotions...
when my emotions are down...
i will scold anyone...
hate anyone...
and sometimes even talk to myself...
i was too careless in making decisions...
i keep on talking to myself...
scolding myself...
what am i doing?
lols~


now...
everything is fine...
but...
yesterday was my worst day at kampar...
worst fever i've ever get...
my head damn hot...
dat my head can boil water ad...
haha...
after getting treatment from doctor...
eating medicine...
now i m getting well ad...
but one thing...
the doctor i visited was very..
very very very...
talkative...
he talks non stop...
from the beginning till the end...
lols...
he was the first doc dat i met who is the most talkative...


now...
sorry everyone whom i let u all down...
sorry my friends...
please accept my apology...
please forgive me if i really made u guys worried...

~the END

Wishes

In this world...

which is inhabitant by living and non living things...

is full of natural disasters, wars, fights, deaths, etc...

every living thing in this world...

has their own wishes...

every human in this world has the wishes of their own...

but most of them could not get their wishes granted...

because of greediness, selfishness, cruelness, etc...

to have our wishes granted...

we must work hard, struggle hard to get them...

if not...

our wishes will only be always in our dreams....

and when they are in our dreams...

they will never come true...

because dreams are never true...

although sometimes does comes true...

me..

as a human...

that has already survive for 19 years...

has never had a dream come true...

now...

it's already week 5 of my trimester...

and i haven do any revision...=)

through these few weeks..

i've found out a lot of things...

i've ask myself tonnes of questions.....

because...

my life is full of miseries...

bitter memories...

hard to cope with my current life...

sometimes...

i feel like dying...=(

i know...

i always care about others...

families...

friends...

buddies...

but how about myself?

no one ever understands me...

all i know is just care about others first...

but one really cares about me...

my mom and dad...

i miss them so much whenever i felt that i m lonely...

sometimes...

i even cried...

when someone's moody...

i tried to cheer someone up...

but i turned up failure...

this makes me hopeless...

cant even care about someone...

what should i do?=(

now...

the question is...

wat i wan in my life?

what's the purpose of me living in this world?

i feel like my life's meaningless...

i always made the wrong choices...

because...

i always couldn't get what i wan...

i wanna be alone...

i wanna turn back myself to the old me...

quiet...

lonely...

dun care bout others...

sometimes...

i dun wanna have too much friends...

when there are too many friends..

i need to care about them...

and then...

this question occurs in my mind again...

WHO CARES ABOUT ME?

now...

i've regretted...

y i did not listen to my mom?

i should have trusted her...

because my mom never lies to me...

but...

it's too late for regrets...

she ask me not to get involved in relationships...

but i ignored her words...

and now...

i have to take up the responsibility...

but...

i'm not happy...=(

i've not made the right choices in my life...

never...

~leave me alone...

Emotions...

humans experience different emotions everyday...

it's just like changing our clothes daily...

happy...=)

sad...=(

moody...

crazy...=P

lazy...

and all other emotions...

different emotions will have different feeling...

it'll just disturb your feelings...

whether you are happy or not...

when emotion changes...

you'll turn into another person...

we can't hide our feelings or emotions...

people can see it when our emotion changes...

but some people are different...

some can hide their feelings from others...

although one is moody...

but one can hide his/her feelings from his/her closest friends...

one will just keep the feeling alone...

keep till one will cry it out alone...

or even worse...

one will turn crazy...xD

It's already week 2 of my 3rd semester in Foundation Studies...

today...

i felt that i m different from the other days...

tired...

moody...

lazy...

dunno y...

this combo of these feelings made me think of lots of things....

even thought of dying...xD

even in the lecture hall 2day...

i can't concentrate to the lecturer...

i don even understand today's lecture...=)

this made me scared...

scared that i have phobia to these two subjects...

cost accounting...

finance...

dunno whether can tackle them anot...

after the lectures...

had my dinner with my frens...

and...

wasted my money...

haiz...=[

my stomach keep on rejecting the food that i put into my mouth...

dunno y...

when i put the food near my mouth...

my stomach will ache...

like asking me not to consume it...

my mood definitely changes after 2day's  dinner...

when i heard bout my frens talking bout migrating to other houses...

made me wanna whack them...

really hate it when i heard that conversation...

but how?

my honey's involve in the conversation...

i'll just have to sit down there and listen...

and be patient...

when i arrive home...

felt terribly tired...

wanna sleep...

but when i lied on the bed...

i thought of my honey...

luckily...

my honey cheered me up when i went to her house...

now my mood changes back to normal again...

no more moody after coming bak from my honey's house...

thanks honey for cheering me up...

love you forever honey...

~the END 

~Festivals~

There are many festivals in our country....

malay new year...

chinese new year...

indian new year...

malay related festivals...

chinese related festivals...

indian related festivals...

and many more...

with these variety of festivals present in our country...

this shows that our country has different variety of people...

different cultures...

different practices...

and so on...

kinda crowded country rite? =)

bak to me now...

haha...xD

long time din touch my blog liao since the lunar new year...

coz i'd start another hobby...

that is writing a diary...

DIARY~ING...xD

kinda like blogging but it needs a pen and a diary only...xD

many things had happened since new year...

new year...new relationship...xD

time passes really fast...

now it's already semester 3 of my trimester...

stil in de mood of going secondary school...hahaXD

haha...but my CNY tis year really is a misery...

no feeling of CNY this year...

may be i m stick to my UNI life ad...

dunno wat's happening around...xD

went to help out at my uncle's phone shop bak at hometown...

earn some pocket money...$$$

haha...kinda surprising that i had a good income this year...

as i had calculated...

my salary + ANG PAO...

hehe...RM7xx

i was surprised this year...

haha...xD

so much money this year...hahaxD

but there's a disaster after CNY...

results came out...

mine's was ok...

but my honey's...

when i phoned her that day...

she was crying...T.T

my heart was like being stabbed million times...

dat whole day..

i cnt concentrate on my work...

i even did some wrong things...

top-up the wrong amount of money to ppl...

LOL...

my uncle got mad when he saw that...xD

haha...today i bought a present for myself...

erm...2day is 1st of March...

and 2moro is 2nd...

dat means...

2moro is my b'day...

2day is my last 18th day...

2moro already 19...xD

wish myself happy b'day in advance...=]

HAPPY B'DAY PETER LIM....^^

~the END

Choices...

Every living things in this world...

has to make decisions everyday...

whether to eat...

sleep...

play...

etc...

Human beings are one of the most clever creature created by GOD...

has to make the most decisions...

has the most decisions to choose...

but why is there choices?

why not if there's only one choice?

b'coz...

human beings are greedy...

they like to have a lot of options...

family, work, jobs, friends...

and the most important choice...

money?

or...

life?

Sometimes...

when i was alone...

walking on the road...

sitting in my room...

cycling outside...

and..

even when i was with my closest friends...

some of these questions will pop-up in my mind...

why they have but i dun have?

why can they have such a peaceful life?

why he/she can but i can't?

why is he/she so clever?

why he/she wanna do that?

why give me so many things to do?

why give options to choose my partners?

why cannot be just one?

why their attitude is like shit?

why is everyone leaving?

what am i doing?

why i like to help?

why i got so many problems while nobody can help me solve?

why i got so many why's???

and the most FAQ...

why am i borned to this world?

those questions keep on flying in my mind...

made me cannot concentrate...

but can i solve those questions by myself?

i tried...

but i failed...

can anyone answer those questions for me?

i am tired of searching for my answers...

another question...

should i start or just be alone?

can anyone answer my questions?

still in doubt...

what should i do?

anyone?

help?

~END~

Relationships...

In this cruel human world...

humans have a lot of relationship statuses...

single...

complicated...

in love...

siblings...

brother-sisterhood...

married...

broken...

and the worst one...

the forgotten one...

Some humans likes to have complicated relationships...

such as...

the ones that likes to play with their relationships...

break here...

stick there...

kinda complicated if you don understand...

but...

some humans like to have simple relationships...

simple until he/she is loyal to their...

partners, frens, families...

Even there's some humans like to be alone...

don like to be crowded...

when it is crowded...

they feel unsafe...

they like to be on a deserted island...

living alone...

few days bak...

had kinda happy moments while preparing for my press conference...

there's arguments...

jokes..

and even cries...

but for me...

i'm just a passer-by...

watch them happy...

i'll be happy...

On the day of my press conference...

have frens that help me a lot...

appreciate that a lot!! xD

thx again to all of my frens that helped out that day...

on the day itself..

i was kinda scared...

nervous...

but...

what to do?

i keep on telling my groupmates to calm down...

they all thought that i am not nervous...

but actually...

i act like i am confident...

but in my heart...

i am the most nervous one on that day...

haiz...

but nvm...

it's all over...

had some compliments from mr. abel...

with my successful conference...=]

after that day...

dat means yesterday...

had kinda bz day...

coz need to go see my AA again...

haiz...

dat old man...

i forgive him...

for not submiting my name....

damn it...

he was such a slow in his typing...

this i will also forgive him...

i waited him for about 30 minutes...

consulted him for about 15 minutes..

wasted such long time...

again...

DAMN IT...

but something funny happen after that...

UTAR's security guards are vv vv vv...

stupid...

LOLs~

wanna know why?

coz...

matthew parked his bike at block A...

as we know...

that block has no parking space for bikes...

so...

his bike was chained by the guards...

OMG...

but one thing they did wrong...

they din chain the tyres...

but they chained they body...=="

swt swt swt...

then...

wat happen?

we juz pull up the chain across the bikes...

and...

the bikes were unchained...LOLs~

After that...

fetch jacky to the train station...

kinda rush cos he nearly missed his train again...

came bak from train station...

do houseworks...

swept the floor...

mopped the floor...

wiped the windows...

wiped the fan...

washed my clothes...

phew...

kinda exhausted after that... 

den took an hour nap with my sister calling me up as my alarm clock...=]

after that...

went out shopping...

at?

Tenaga Cergas...=]

bought a lot of things...

bought about RM50 things...

wooooooow! =]

but after that...

went to express out my feelings again....

with jacky's motorbike...

guess what?

sat with 100km/h....xD

then shouted...

AARRRRRRRGH!!!

wow...

everything was gone...

as if i was just borned to this world...

felt satisfied...

phew~~~

many guys like to have many relationships with gals...

y? i keep on asking myself...

is it playing break ups fun?

haven tried that before...

coz...

after she had gone to the far away world...

i am always waiting her to come bak one day...

to be bak with me...

but i know she has gone...

and will never come bak...

currently...

i have a very weird feeling when i met with someone..

someone very close to me...

OMG~

is that true?

or is this all just a dream?

can someone wake me up?

=X...

~enD~

a kind hearted guy...

In this world...

there are living things and non living things...

non living things are those things that cannot move...

nor can live...

living things are those things that lives...

survives...

struggles...

and...

battle...

against each other...

in order to stand alive in this cruel world...

Again...

Welcome to my blog...

the day after christmas...

my laptop blackout...

not once..

but twice!!

but nvm....

got laptop no laptop...

no difference...

spent my new year in Kampar...

din go bak celebrate with my family...

kinda sad...

but also kinda have fun celebrate with my UNI frens..

can be considered a simple celebration...

went to WESTLAKE...

take photos...

got ppl play fire crackers...

and even...

got ppl celebrate b'day...

a very crowded place and joyous day...

everyone's happy...

is it?

or is it me only that is happy on that day?

or...

am i not?

kinda confusing with my feelings...

Teenage lovers often play break-ups...

den...

glue bak together...

complicated relationships between teenagers nowadays...

especially my group of frens...

sometimes some happy...

some moody...

some mad...

and...

speechless...=X

I have a question...

a question that i wanted to ask myself...

long time ago...

WHY AM I SO HELPFUL?

why i like to help other ppl so much?

is it when i help them...

they will return some favours to me?

the answer is...

NO...

at first...

when i was small...

i always tink...

do a lot of good deeds...

will get a lot of rewards and bonus...

but dat was just in my dreams...

in reality...

everything happens in the opposite way...

do bad things will get rewards...

is it?

it's kinda confusing...

I'd like to help my frens...

but i dunno why...

because...

when i heard that any of my fren needs help...

i'll definitely help...

without doubt...

but...

did anyone helped me solve my problems?

again...

NO...

sometimes...

i really tink that i need a partner...

a live partner...

that can support me...

help me...

encourage me...

help me express out my feelings...

but it's hard for me to erase her memory from my mind...

today...

i mean..

yesterday...

during my lecture class...

my lecturer displays a video...

on the advices and quotes of live...

one of them is...

memories cannot be erased and will stay in our minds forever...

when i looked at this statement...

her memories came into my mind...

our happy moments...

but now...

i'm still doubtful about my relationships...

frenships...

brother-sisterhood...

partners...

should i hold strong to them?

or should i look at them lightly?

or...

should i be more selfish next time?

or what?

still in dilemma...

~Doubtful~