Choices...

Every living things in this world...

has to make decisions everyday...

whether to eat...

sleep...

play...

etc...

Human beings are one of the most clever creature created by GOD...

has to make the most decisions...

has the most decisions to choose...

but why is there choices?

why not if there's only one choice?

b'coz...

human beings are greedy...

they like to have a lot of options...

family, work, jobs, friends...

and the most important choice...

money?

or...

life?

Sometimes...

when i was alone...

walking on the road...

sitting in my room...

cycling outside...

and..

even when i was with my closest friends...

some of these questions will pop-up in my mind...

why they have but i dun have?

why can they have such a peaceful life?

why he/she can but i can't?

why is he/she so clever?

why he/she wanna do that?

why give me so many things to do?

why give options to choose my partners?

why cannot be just one?

why their attitude is like shit?

why is everyone leaving?

what am i doing?

why i like to help?

why i got so many problems while nobody can help me solve?

why i got so many why's???

and the most FAQ...

why am i borned to this world?

those questions keep on flying in my mind...

made me cannot concentrate...

but can i solve those questions by myself?

i tried...

but i failed...

can anyone answer those questions for me?

i am tired of searching for my answers...

another question...

should i start or just be alone?

can anyone answer my questions?

still in doubt...

what should i do?

anyone?

help?

~END~

Relationships...

In this cruel human world...

humans have a lot of relationship statuses...

single...

complicated...

in love...

siblings...

brother-sisterhood...

married...

broken...

and the worst one...

the forgotten one...

Some humans likes to have complicated relationships...

such as...

the ones that likes to play with their relationships...

break here...

stick there...

kinda complicated if you don understand...

but...

some humans like to have simple relationships...

simple until he/she is loyal to their...

partners, frens, families...

Even there's some humans like to be alone...

don like to be crowded...

when it is crowded...

they feel unsafe...

they like to be on a deserted island...

living alone...

few days bak...

had kinda happy moments while preparing for my press conference...

there's arguments...

jokes..

and even cries...

but for me...

i'm just a passer-by...

watch them happy...

i'll be happy...

On the day of my press conference...

have frens that help me a lot...

appreciate that a lot!! xD

thx again to all of my frens that helped out that day...

on the day itself..

i was kinda scared...

nervous...

but...

what to do?

i keep on telling my groupmates to calm down...

they all thought that i am not nervous...

but actually...

i act like i am confident...

but in my heart...

i am the most nervous one on that day...

haiz...

but nvm...

it's all over...

had some compliments from mr. abel...

with my successful conference...=]

after that day...

dat means yesterday...

had kinda bz day...

coz need to go see my AA again...

haiz...

dat old man...

i forgive him...

for not submiting my name....

damn it...

he was such a slow in his typing...

this i will also forgive him...

i waited him for about 30 minutes...

consulted him for about 15 minutes..

wasted such long time...

again...

DAMN IT...

but something funny happen after that...

UTAR's security guards are vv vv vv...

stupid...

LOLs~

wanna know why?

coz...

matthew parked his bike at block A...

as we know...

that block has no parking space for bikes...

so...

his bike was chained by the guards...

OMG...

but one thing they did wrong...

they din chain the tyres...

but they chained they body...=="

swt swt swt...

then...

wat happen?

we juz pull up the chain across the bikes...

and...

the bikes were unchained...LOLs~

After that...

fetch jacky to the train station...

kinda rush cos he nearly missed his train again...

came bak from train station...

do houseworks...

swept the floor...

mopped the floor...

wiped the windows...

wiped the fan...

washed my clothes...

phew...

kinda exhausted after that... 

den took an hour nap with my sister calling me up as my alarm clock...=]

after that...

went out shopping...

at?

Tenaga Cergas...=]

bought a lot of things...

bought about RM50 things...

wooooooow! =]

but after that...

went to express out my feelings again....

with jacky's motorbike...

guess what?

sat with 100km/h....xD

then shouted...

AARRRRRRRGH!!!

wow...

everything was gone...

as if i was just borned to this world...

felt satisfied...

phew~~~

many guys like to have many relationships with gals...

y? i keep on asking myself...

is it playing break ups fun?

haven tried that before...

coz...

after she had gone to the far away world...

i am always waiting her to come bak one day...

to be bak with me...

but i know she has gone...

and will never come bak...

currently...

i have a very weird feeling when i met with someone..

someone very close to me...

OMG~

is that true?

or is this all just a dream?

can someone wake me up?

=X...

~enD~

a kind hearted guy...

In this world...

there are living things and non living things...

non living things are those things that cannot move...

nor can live...

living things are those things that lives...

survives...

struggles...

and...

battle...

against each other...

in order to stand alive in this cruel world...

Again...

Welcome to my blog...

the day after christmas...

my laptop blackout...

not once..

but twice!!

but nvm....

got laptop no laptop...

no difference...

spent my new year in Kampar...

din go bak celebrate with my family...

kinda sad...

but also kinda have fun celebrate with my UNI frens..

can be considered a simple celebration...

went to WESTLAKE...

take photos...

got ppl play fire crackers...

and even...

got ppl celebrate b'day...

a very crowded place and joyous day...

everyone's happy...

is it?

or is it me only that is happy on that day?

or...

am i not?

kinda confusing with my feelings...

Teenage lovers often play break-ups...

den...

glue bak together...

complicated relationships between teenagers nowadays...

especially my group of frens...

sometimes some happy...

some moody...

some mad...

and...

speechless...=X

I have a question...

a question that i wanted to ask myself...

long time ago...

WHY AM I SO HELPFUL?

why i like to help other ppl so much?

is it when i help them...

they will return some favours to me?

the answer is...

NO...

at first...

when i was small...

i always tink...

do a lot of good deeds...

will get a lot of rewards and bonus...

but dat was just in my dreams...

in reality...

everything happens in the opposite way...

do bad things will get rewards...

is it?

it's kinda confusing...

I'd like to help my frens...

but i dunno why...

because...

when i heard that any of my fren needs help...

i'll definitely help...

without doubt...

but...

did anyone helped me solve my problems?

again...

NO...

sometimes...

i really tink that i need a partner...

a live partner...

that can support me...

help me...

encourage me...

help me express out my feelings...

but it's hard for me to erase her memory from my mind...

today...

i mean..

yesterday...

during my lecture class...

my lecturer displays a video...

on the advices and quotes of live...

one of them is...

memories cannot be erased and will stay in our minds forever...

when i looked at this statement...

her memories came into my mind...

our happy moments...

but now...

i'm still doubtful about my relationships...

frenships...

brother-sisterhood...

partners...

should i hold strong to them?

or should i look at them lightly?

or...

should i be more selfish next time?

or what?

still in dilemma...

~Doubtful~