Wishes

In this world...

which is inhabitant by living and non living things...

is full of natural disasters, wars, fights, deaths, etc...

every living thing in this world...

has their own wishes...

every human in this world has the wishes of their own...

but most of them could not get their wishes granted...

because of greediness, selfishness, cruelness, etc...

to have our wishes granted...

we must work hard, struggle hard to get them...

if not...

our wishes will only be always in our dreams....

and when they are in our dreams...

they will never come true...

because dreams are never true...

although sometimes does comes true...

me..

as a human...

that has already survive for 19 years...

has never had a dream come true...

now...

it's already week 5 of my trimester...

and i haven do any revision...=)

through these few weeks..

i've found out a lot of things...

i've ask myself tonnes of questions.....

because...

my life is full of miseries...

bitter memories...

hard to cope with my current life...

sometimes...

i feel like dying...=(

i know...

i always care about others...

families...

friends...

buddies...

but how about myself?

no one ever understands me...

all i know is just care about others first...

but one really cares about me...

my mom and dad...

i miss them so much whenever i felt that i m lonely...

sometimes...

i even cried...

when someone's moody...

i tried to cheer someone up...

but i turned up failure...

this makes me hopeless...

cant even care about someone...

what should i do?=(

now...

the question is...

wat i wan in my life?

what's the purpose of me living in this world?

i feel like my life's meaningless...

i always made the wrong choices...

because...

i always couldn't get what i wan...

i wanna be alone...

i wanna turn back myself to the old me...

quiet...

lonely...

dun care bout others...

sometimes...

i dun wanna have too much friends...

when there are too many friends..

i need to care about them...

and then...

this question occurs in my mind again...

WHO CARES ABOUT ME?

now...

i've regretted...

y i did not listen to my mom?

i should have trusted her...

because my mom never lies to me...

but...

it's too late for regrets...

she ask me not to get involved in relationships...

but i ignored her words...

and now...

i have to take up the responsibility...

but...

i'm not happy...=(

i've not made the right choices in my life...

never...

~leave me alone...

Emotions...

humans experience different emotions everyday...

it's just like changing our clothes daily...

happy...=)

sad...=(

moody...

crazy...=P

lazy...

and all other emotions...

different emotions will have different feeling...

it'll just disturb your feelings...

whether you are happy or not...

when emotion changes...

you'll turn into another person...

we can't hide our feelings or emotions...

people can see it when our emotion changes...

but some people are different...

some can hide their feelings from others...

although one is moody...

but one can hide his/her feelings from his/her closest friends...

one will just keep the feeling alone...

keep till one will cry it out alone...

or even worse...

one will turn crazy...xD

It's already week 2 of my 3rd semester in Foundation Studies...

today...

i felt that i m different from the other days...

tired...

moody...

lazy...

dunno y...

this combo of these feelings made me think of lots of things....

even thought of dying...xD

even in the lecture hall 2day...

i can't concentrate to the lecturer...

i don even understand today's lecture...=)

this made me scared...

scared that i have phobia to these two subjects...

cost accounting...

finance...

dunno whether can tackle them anot...

after the lectures...

had my dinner with my frens...

and...

wasted my money...

haiz...=[

my stomach keep on rejecting the food that i put into my mouth...

dunno y...

when i put the food near my mouth...

my stomach will ache...

like asking me not to consume it...

my mood definitely changes after 2day's  dinner...

when i heard bout my frens talking bout migrating to other houses...

made me wanna whack them...

really hate it when i heard that conversation...

but how?

my honey's involve in the conversation...

i'll just have to sit down there and listen...

and be patient...

when i arrive home...

felt terribly tired...

wanna sleep...

but when i lied on the bed...

i thought of my honey...

luckily...

my honey cheered me up when i went to her house...

now my mood changes back to normal again...

no more moody after coming bak from my honey's house...

thanks honey for cheering me up...

love you forever honey...

~the END 

~Festivals~

There are many festivals in our country....

malay new year...

chinese new year...

indian new year...

malay related festivals...

chinese related festivals...

indian related festivals...

and many more...

with these variety of festivals present in our country...

this shows that our country has different variety of people...

different cultures...

different practices...

and so on...

kinda crowded country rite? =)

bak to me now...

haha...xD

long time din touch my blog liao since the lunar new year...

coz i'd start another hobby...

that is writing a diary...

DIARY~ING...xD

kinda like blogging but it needs a pen and a diary only...xD

many things had happened since new year...

new year...new relationship...xD

time passes really fast...

now it's already semester 3 of my trimester...

stil in de mood of going secondary school...hahaXD

haha...but my CNY tis year really is a misery...

no feeling of CNY this year...

may be i m stick to my UNI life ad...

dunno wat's happening around...xD

went to help out at my uncle's phone shop bak at hometown...

earn some pocket money...$$$

haha...kinda surprising that i had a good income this year...

as i had calculated...

my salary + ANG PAO...

hehe...RM7xx

i was surprised this year...

haha...xD

so much money this year...hahaxD

but there's a disaster after CNY...

results came out...

mine's was ok...

but my honey's...

when i phoned her that day...

she was crying...T.T

my heart was like being stabbed million times...

dat whole day..

i cnt concentrate on my work...

i even did some wrong things...

top-up the wrong amount of money to ppl...

LOL...

my uncle got mad when he saw that...xD

haha...today i bought a present for myself...

erm...2day is 1st of March...

and 2moro is 2nd...

dat means...

2moro is my b'day...

2day is my last 18th day...

2moro already 19...xD

wish myself happy b'day in advance...=]

HAPPY B'DAY PETER LIM....^^

~the END