a kind hearted guy...

In this world...

there are living things and non living things...

non living things are those things that cannot move...

nor can live...

living things are those things that lives...

survives...

struggles...

and...

battle...

against each other...

in order to stand alive in this cruel world...

Again...

Welcome to my blog...

the day after christmas...

my laptop blackout...

not once..

but twice!!

but nvm....

got laptop no laptop...

no difference...

spent my new year in Kampar...

din go bak celebrate with my family...

kinda sad...

but also kinda have fun celebrate with my UNI frens..

can be considered a simple celebration...

went to WESTLAKE...

take photos...

got ppl play fire crackers...

and even...

got ppl celebrate b'day...

a very crowded place and joyous day...

everyone's happy...

is it?

or is it me only that is happy on that day?

or...

am i not?

kinda confusing with my feelings...

Teenage lovers often play break-ups...

den...

glue bak together...

complicated relationships between teenagers nowadays...

especially my group of frens...

sometimes some happy...

some moody...

some mad...

and...

speechless...=X

I have a question...

a question that i wanted to ask myself...

long time ago...

WHY AM I SO HELPFUL?

why i like to help other ppl so much?

is it when i help them...

they will return some favours to me?

the answer is...

NO...

at first...

when i was small...

i always tink...

do a lot of good deeds...

will get a lot of rewards and bonus...

but dat was just in my dreams...

in reality...

everything happens in the opposite way...

do bad things will get rewards...

is it?

it's kinda confusing...

I'd like to help my frens...

but i dunno why...

because...

when i heard that any of my fren needs help...

i'll definitely help...

without doubt...

but...

did anyone helped me solve my problems?

again...

NO...

sometimes...

i really tink that i need a partner...

a live partner...

that can support me...

help me...

encourage me...

help me express out my feelings...

but it's hard for me to erase her memory from my mind...

today...

i mean..

yesterday...

during my lecture class...

my lecturer displays a video...

on the advices and quotes of live...

one of them is...

memories cannot be erased and will stay in our minds forever...

when i looked at this statement...

her memories came into my mind...

our happy moments...

but now...

i'm still doubtful about my relationships...

frenships...

brother-sisterhood...

partners...

should i hold strong to them?

or should i look at them lightly?

or...

should i be more selfish next time?

or what?

still in dilemma...

~Doubtful~